What we do in life...

...echoes in eternity. I haven't much of a desire to blog but considering the "avid" following I have, consisting mostly of me, myself, and I, it doesn't matter a whole lot. I ended my wonderful relationship with Kelly. A specific reason still eludes me. It was the most amazing relationship I've ever been in and she was incredible. I just did not have a peace about moving to New England, something felt wrong when I prayed, and I felt uneasy about traveling there for vacation in March. I still have no reason why other than I believed it's what God wanted. I had two choices, to either follow his plan or do my own thing and I already know how the latter turns out.

Either way, I am absolutely and entirely determined not to give God any reason whatsoever to not bring a woman into my life so I'll spend this time to write, focus on growing, and to put my complete trust in him, knowing that his plan is better than mine. It always has been and always will be. Maybe I'll squeeze some exercise in there too since I just got a completely free elliptical machine! 70 lbs sounds like a lot though... :'(

But life is really great actually! I leave for San Diego on Friday to visit Chad since I had a plane ticket that was non-refundable. Southwest rocks because I changed my flight the day before I was scheduled to leave with zero penalties. I don't have a lot of friends, partially by choice since I do my best to stay away from bars and those types of friends. And most of the rest are married or much younger than me. I could use some more adventures but at the same time, I'm kind of a homebody so I'm usually satisfied to spend most of my weekends at home. I go to breakfast with my dad and visit my parents.

Oh, and I've changed churches. The person I was a year ago is a lot different than me now and looking back two, five, ten years back, that was a completely different person and I've attended my church since I was 9. People frequently judge others or view them from what they've heard from other people or witnessed in the past. It's nice to attend where hardly anyone knows me and doesn't have any preconcieved opinions of me. :P And church on Saturday nights means my whole Sunday is free. And I don't want to go to see people, but go to hear a good message and participate in some great worship.

The fat, old man...

It's Been a While...

I haven't updated my blog in a while sooo... there isn't much going on. Still with Kelly. We've known each other for 8 1/2 months and have been together (going out, dating, or going steady as my mom would say) for 6 1/2 months. My longest relationship which probably sounds short to some people, some might even say it's not a surprise, especially people who "know" me based on stories and impressions from other people, but it merely means I've met somebody that matches with me pretty well. Thanks eharmony. She has an excellent way of saying the right thing that would put me at ease if we are arguing instead of saying something akin to pooring gasoline on a fire.

This past 2 week vacation out in New Hampshire has really made me think about how soon I want 3 kids in my home but she comes with 3 kids. I can't have her without them. Not that they aren't great kids but I will be skipping several steps a lot of other couples have. Getting married and then having an empty home for a while and then gradually you introduce children into the mix. I will jump from single bachelor to being married (a big change as is) with three children in the home. Anyways, it's a long way off. I need to seriously start looking for work out there and then once I relocate, the next steps can be looked at.

We still have a lot of time to get to know each other. I used to want to rush everything but now that I see it form a new perspective, anybody who spends a couple weeks or months together and then gets engaged and married quickly is just asking for problems later on. I'm not saying God can't bless that union but the more time you take in the relationship now, the more you are ready to face the challenges of marriage. But everybody is different. I've seen friends get engaged after a month together and now they have a small boy and are missionaries in Indonesia. Pretty cool...

My roomate is a bum. We made a deal that he would cook meals for me every now and then cuz he's an awesome cook and I would pay for toilet paper, paper towels, water and garbage, and salt for the water softener. He's cooked once in a month and a half. And he doesn't clean... which didn't bother me so much last year but this year I'm more motivated to keeping my house a little cleaner. I'm getting tired of living in bachelor filth, to be quite honest... but it's hard to clean when the roomate doesn't. He complained about spending 2 minutes the other day to clean out moldy food from the refrigerator? Really?

My mom's heart surgery went well. Her valve was repaired successfully without needing to use any cow parts (that's right, cow parts). She had a collapsed lung but they said it was not unusual for that type of surgery and she came home yesterday after 6 days in the hospital. It kind of worried me since she is 59 and getting older but God watched over everything and it went great. I'll be working from home tomorrow because she can't be alone for about 2 weeks and my dad has to work.

But anyways, life is kind of the same routine. Keep having my devotions, meeting with Wally, attempting to change the areas I am weak, become a better friend, boyfriend, employee, and Servant of Christ. It's not always easy to talk about and share with people since I'm not the preaching type but maybe as I grow, more people will see my actions and the way I am...