Garbage?

It's sad when the highlight of your week is sneakily getting rid of your garbage in a commercial dumpster, something akin to how Dexter dumps bodies in the ocean. Oh, and beating a video game. I think I prefer life that way though. The past two weekends I have done nothing, really. Sat around, barely left my house, fun times. I had preservice on both Friday nights for our new foster parents. This past Saturday I went and saw TS and got to hold my friend's 3 week old daughter!

I've been talking to a girl for almost two months who lives in NH. I met her on eharmony which was sort of random considering I was very anti-meet-anyone-on-the-internet after the Mexico debacle several years back. I only got on there cuz Matt insisted I check it out. But we clicked and I'm heading out there in less than two weeks. I really haven't been saying much to people since my track record of failed relationship is currently running at 100%. She looks really young, like me, but is 5 months older. She is divorced with three kids, has an awesome personality and is beautiful. I'm driving 1000 miles to meet her so that says it right there.

The kids part doesn't bother me really; it's the ex-husband part that causes me worry. Whatever, God's got it under control. I done my best to get to know her. We've asked each other a million questions. I pretty much put her through a rigorous interview process, haha. Maybe I should focus on how far I've come from the person I used to be instead of all my current flaws.

I've actually reached point where I can go back and read something I've written and be impressed. Not that I'm going to get an ego but... one more step to a dream! I've been putting more time into it but it still needs more. I need a sabbatical.

Ok, peace out...

My Struggle

must be some mistake
'cause i'm not worth the price you paid
with every passing hour
i convince myself that you saw something in me
but i can hear them still
as the whispers laced with hatred fill the room
guess i'm wasting my time
how could you love a man like me

lord i need your strength
'cause i am weak and falling to my knees
who is on my side
'cause i can't tell my friends from enemies
filling up with pain
bitterness controls the air i breathe
what am i fighting for
do you have a plan for me

must be some mistake
'cause i'm not worth the price you paid
with every passing hour
i convince myself that you saw something in me
but i can hear them still
as the whispers laced with hatred fill the room
guess i'm wasting my time
how could you love a man like me

must be some mistake
'cause i'm not worth the price you paid

Countdown

3 weeks, 4 days... hmmmm...

will history repeat itself or will there be a surprising change?

There is no God

The reaction of an aethiest when they die and find themselves in hell has to be priceless. In our stupidity, we think we know more than an all-knowing God... so smart, in fact, that we can proclaim that he does not exist.

I can't read books written by aethiets. I opened one up at Barnes & Noble yesterday. A couple sentences and I start getting mad...

Eastward Bound

I am going to New England at the end of June, for the 4th of July. I think I'm going to throw a Boston Tea Party!

On that note, did you know that are lame government taxes canceled debts? The whole reason debts get canceled (aka settling on credit cards) is cuz you don't freaking have the money to pay it off to begin with. So what does our delightful "Democracy" do? Tax it. That's right.

I love the fact that our government was founded on the fact that people wanted out from under the horrible British rule. A big reason for that? Taxes. Now, we get taxed on everything. They are even talking about raising taxes on cigarettes and alcohol, probably gas, and even adding one onto sugary drinks. Next thing you know, they'll measure your lung capacity and tax you for the air you breath. I probably won't be alive but at some point, if Christ has not returned, our government will be overthrown by a public who is so sick of being screwed over. Democrats, Republicans, it doesn't matter. All wealthy, all liars, and all have the budgeting sense of a 13 year old. If somebody continued to get in debt, would you give them money to help them out? Would you loan money to somebody who would just throw it away? If our government continues to get in more and more debt and can't manage the budget of our nation, why should we continue to give them money?

If it wasn't for the verse that says give to Ceaser's, what is Ceaser's... I wouldn't pay it. $200 wasted cuz the government is greedier than a tax collector...

Level Up!

Is it wrong to get suspicious when something good happens? Haha!

I really don't have much to write about at all. Not yet... maybe later. Been trying to write BUT geez, it takes a long time. I gotta stop trying to edit everything and just write, write, write. It has really helped not working on the weekends. I went from not having enough time to having extra time. And I cut out D&D and haven't been going to Lifeline. I just don't want to go anymore... so I'm just relaxing until God shows me what to do. Maybe I'll try the men's Bible study on Wed nights. Don't know.

On that note... I need to plan a trip to the East Coast. And I think I can easily pull it off... sometime this summer if everything goes well... high fives!

Bridget Jones's Diary

Is it sad that I really enjoyed this movie? And that I had a lot in common with it, haha! Geez, I need a new mancard cuz I think someone stole mine. Dangit... And Gaius Baltar is a gay guy!? What the heck!? The Gaius Baltar! The part where she's running down the street in her underwear... hilarious! I might have to buy that one.

And Moaning Mertle from Harry Potter was in it too, LMAO!

The whole optimistic ending kind of gets old after the same endingto so many movies. Even though it wasn't that great of a movie, I did enjoy the ending of Atonement much better. We need a good ol' pessimistic ending once and awhile.

Btw, the "wonderful" website noaa.gov gives horrible predictions of the weather. It said sunny all day in Demotte with maybe some "scattered sprinkles" BEFORE 1pm. I guess maybe what I failed to look at was what it would be like in Valpo. I left my parents around 3pm and it was raining all the way up until a few miles south of Demotte. I got soaked! On a motorcycle, the rain tends to gather in the crotch and buttcrack areas. Not fun times, haha!

I've been writing again. Actually doing my best to put some time into it. It can be tough. It's so hard to mold sentences together... anyways, it's tough but worth a try, I guess, right...